Yeah, I know, it's Tuesday.
I've reached the end of the list of questions. I'm not sure my mind really feels freed by this exercise, honestly. I didn't feel particularly torn by any of them, and none of them really required any deep thought. But oh, well. Maybe my expectations were too high.
46. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you? Not much, honestly. I'm thankful to have reached some arbitrary age in life where people's opinions hopefully don't matter as much, and if they do, I remember that their life isn't affected by what I do. So I don't think I'd change much about what I do, say, or am just based on the notion of being free from criticism.
47. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing? Just now. (see, deep questions)
48. What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love? Always first and foremost, I love my husband. I wouldn't be the relatively sane person I am without him. I love my family and my friends, my dogs (babies!!), and my home. I try to show them all love every day.
49. In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that? Probably not, since it’s a fairly arbitrary day. I think it’s fine to not remember every day in detail if there’s nothing monumental about it. I’d rather save my memory for the important stuff.
50. Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you? At this stage of my life, my decisions directly affect only me and my husband. Therefore, we make them together. I don’t believe he makes decisions for me, or vice versa. We make decisions for us. There may be compromise at times, but I'm thankful that I met a partner in life who sees eye to eye with me, and thus far, I've never had to "sign off" on a decision that I couldn't be happy with.
And done.
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Monday, March 26, 2012
Free Your Mind Monday
It's time for the next installment of Free Your Mind Monday. Thankfully, these questions aren't as lame as last week's.
36. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil? Yes. By whatever design you believe in, we were all given a moral compass, and I believe we know what is right and wrong without having to be told which is which.
37. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job? Yes, but only because I’d use the money to get myself into a job I love. I'd find a way to have my own business of some sort or use the money to pay bills that this job pays for while I pursue a dream.
38. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing? I would absolutely rather be spending more time and effort doing something I love than do half the work when I feel only "meh" about it.
39. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before? Sometimes, in some ways. Mondays seem to always feel the same. There is a lot of life that is consistent, but that's not necessarily bad. I know that today, like most days, I'll go home, make dinner, eat with Dan, chat about our day, cuddle the pups, and kiss them all before I fall asleep. There's nothing wrong with any of that. There are, however, mundane things about every day life that make it feel repetitive in a boring way, but that's life.
40. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in? Dating Dan, honestly. He was so very different than anyone else I’d ever dated, yet I just had such a connection with him. I couldn't put my finger on what had me so drawn to him, but I followed my gut and my heart and it was the best thing I've ever done. I had so many thoughts about the guy I should be with, and on paper, Dan wasn't many of them. I'd glad I threw away my list and allowed myself to love who I love.
36. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil? Yes. By whatever design you believe in, we were all given a moral compass, and I believe we know what is right and wrong without having to be told which is which.
37. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job? Yes, but only because I’d use the money to get myself into a job I love. I'd find a way to have my own business of some sort or use the money to pay bills that this job pays for while I pursue a dream.
38. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing? I would absolutely rather be spending more time and effort doing something I love than do half the work when I feel only "meh" about it.
39. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before? Sometimes, in some ways. Mondays seem to always feel the same. There is a lot of life that is consistent, but that's not necessarily bad. I know that today, like most days, I'll go home, make dinner, eat with Dan, chat about our day, cuddle the pups, and kiss them all before I fall asleep. There's nothing wrong with any of that. There are, however, mundane things about every day life that make it feel repetitive in a boring way, but that's life.
40. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in? Dating Dan, honestly. He was so very different than anyone else I’d ever dated, yet I just had such a connection with him. I couldn't put my finger on what had me so drawn to him, but I followed my gut and my heart and it was the best thing I've ever done. I had so many thoughts about the guy I should be with, and on paper, Dan wasn't many of them. I'd glad I threw away my list and allowed myself to love who I love.
Monday, March 12, 2012
Free Your Mind... Double Up
I didn't free my mind last Monday. Last week was just nuts with work and I just didn't get to it. So I'm doubling up today and posting a whopping 10 questions.
21. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton? Joyful simpleton. I've never been a genius, though, so I guess I don't have that to compare to. I do know I don't like to be worried or stressed, though, so to be joyful - even if I am an idiot - seems preferable.
22. Why are you, you? Because of my parents, my sister, my husband, my friends, my past boyfriends. Everyone I’ve met, and every life experience I’ve had has shaped me into who I am today. I'm also me because of my values, my goals, and preferences. I'm me because I'm no one else, simply and obviously put.
23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend? Most times. I hope to improve on my friend-being skills. I'm not always good at keeping up with communication. I think of my friends often, and rather than reaching out to see how they are or just to say "hello," my joyful simpleton brain moves on to the next subject. I need to be better at acting on my thoughts to reach out and say hello, make lunch plans, or send a card to let them know they're in my thoughts.
24. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you? It’s more unfortunate to lose touch with a close-by friend because there’s no real reason. If someone moves away, I think there's more of an "out of sight, out of mind affect." Unfortunately, there's more of an excuse - you can't easily get together to do the things you used to do. So when you grow apart from someone who lives close by, it is more unfortunate.
25. What are you most grateful for? My marriage. First and foremost, every day and every night, I am grateful for Dan and our relationship. I'd be lost without him.
26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones? I'd rather not be able to make new ones. If I lost the old ones, I wouldn't have the knowledge to avoid making mistakes a second time.
27. Is it possible to know the truth without challenging it first? Yes. In some ways, truth is relative. In matters of the heart, you can know your truth without having to prove or justify it.
28. Has your greatest fear ever come true? Unfortunately, my greatest fear to this point in my life has come true. I'm surviving it daily. I suppose now something else will in time become my greatest fear and I'll deal with that coming true if and when that happens.
29. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Yes. My nature is such that I remember when extremely upsetting times. Five years from now, I'll remember this particular upsetting time. I won't still be as upset, and the pain won't be as deep, but I won't ever forget it.
30. What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special? I remember playing baseball in the yard with my dad when I was really small. I’d make him crawl around the bases so I could have time to retrieve the ball and tag him out. It’s special because it was so carefree, and because I think I knew then what a great father he was. It was just one of my favorite things to do with him, and thinking of it always bring a smile to my face.
21. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton? Joyful simpleton. I've never been a genius, though, so I guess I don't have that to compare to. I do know I don't like to be worried or stressed, though, so to be joyful - even if I am an idiot - seems preferable.
22. Why are you, you? Because of my parents, my sister, my husband, my friends, my past boyfriends. Everyone I’ve met, and every life experience I’ve had has shaped me into who I am today. I'm also me because of my values, my goals, and preferences. I'm me because I'm no one else, simply and obviously put.
23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend? Most times. I hope to improve on my friend-being skills. I'm not always good at keeping up with communication. I think of my friends often, and rather than reaching out to see how they are or just to say "hello," my joyful simpleton brain moves on to the next subject. I need to be better at acting on my thoughts to reach out and say hello, make lunch plans, or send a card to let them know they're in my thoughts.
24. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you? It’s more unfortunate to lose touch with a close-by friend because there’s no real reason. If someone moves away, I think there's more of an "out of sight, out of mind affect." Unfortunately, there's more of an excuse - you can't easily get together to do the things you used to do. So when you grow apart from someone who lives close by, it is more unfortunate.
25. What are you most grateful for? My marriage. First and foremost, every day and every night, I am grateful for Dan and our relationship. I'd be lost without him.
26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones? I'd rather not be able to make new ones. If I lost the old ones, I wouldn't have the knowledge to avoid making mistakes a second time.
27. Is it possible to know the truth without challenging it first? Yes. In some ways, truth is relative. In matters of the heart, you can know your truth without having to prove or justify it.
28. Has your greatest fear ever come true? Unfortunately, my greatest fear to this point in my life has come true. I'm surviving it daily. I suppose now something else will in time become my greatest fear and I'll deal with that coming true if and when that happens.
29. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Yes. My nature is such that I remember when extremely upsetting times. Five years from now, I'll remember this particular upsetting time. I won't still be as upset, and the pain won't be as deep, but I won't ever forget it.
30. What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special? I remember playing baseball in the yard with my dad when I was really small. I’d make him crawl around the bases so I could have time to retrieve the ball and tag him out. It’s special because it was so carefree, and because I think I knew then what a great father he was. It was just one of my favorite things to do with him, and thinking of it always bring a smile to my face.
Monday, February 27, 2012
Monday Musings Free Your Mind
Buckle Up. This could be long. I didn't get to a random musings post on Friday, but it turns out my weekend was more fun/interesting to talk about anyway. Kind of. So now, brought to you by cold medicines galore and a head stuffed full of cotton, I bring you Monday Musings Free Your Mind, where I mash two posts together and hope for the best.
- Last week, we were informed that we get to go to Morristown for work. For a day. Yep, the VP, in his infinite wisdom wants us to make the trek to New Jersey for a one-day meeting. The good thing is, my boss doesn't seem to be seeing the sense in this, and it sounds like I may be going earlier and working from there for a day. Maybe. Hurray for not rapidly flying across country and back, but boo for being away from home longer, which is bound to make me cranky.
- Speaking of cranky, I have a cold. I spent yesterday on the couch for the most part while Dan finished painting the first color of the guest room. I did a fair amount of whining, and when laying on the couch had tired me out enough, I went back to bed. I hate that I'm at work sick today (because if it was someone else, I'd be bitching about them exposing me to their plague), but it's month-end close. My plan today is to get as much done as I can and go back home. I'm already starting to feel hazy.
- I spent part of Saturday with Temerity Jane sans Penny, who had some crankiness of her own going on. We met up, headed to Old Navy for flip flops, then went for pedicures. After that, we went out for lunch at the only place we ever seem to go (The Yardhouse is yummy, though). It's always nice to have girl time, and TJ and I see eye-to-eye on quite a few things, so that was fun. Then I shadowed a very successful lia sophia advisor and spent Saturday night with the pups, take-out, and movies while Dan went dirt-bike riding with the boys.
- While we were getting our pedicures, the nail lady asked if we were married and then if we had kids. We both said we were married, TJ mentioned Penny, and I said I had no children. The nail lady said, "yet..." And I said, "no, none for us." As much as I am passionate about raising IF awareness, the nail lady I'll never see again doesn't need to know, and I'm not going to explain it in public. Apparently, my answer wasn't good enough and she ended up saying something along the lines of (in her Asian accent) "your husband okay you no want his kids?" Umm, say what? Love how that became my fault. That's the shiit I deal with. She's lucky I've been in a good place lately and didn't accidentally on purpose kick her. She should thank my therapist.
Alright, now onto the next installment of mind-freeing questions:
16. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy? This really isn't a mind-boggling question, if you ask me. We all value different things and have different interests. We’re all unique and different things make us tick. You may love stamp-collecting, while I'd rather make headbands or wreaths or something. There's no right or wrong when it comes to what fulfills you.
17. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back? I really want to see Trans-Siberian Orchestra in concert. I guess what’s holding me back is making the effort to buy tickets and go. It always strikes me as a pricey show, and though I know I'd love it, I can't seem to justify it. One day, though.
18. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of? Who isn’t? I think we all have something that we know we need to let go, and we play it off like it's not a big deal, but it IS a big deal and we're not ready yet.
19. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why? I love the Northwest and would love to live in Seattle near my sister.
20. Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster? No! I don’t mess with elevators at all. If you push stuff, it might stop, and then I’ll be trapped. Elevators are terrifying, and you never touch them more than necessary. Ever.
Happy Monday Musings Free Your Mind, friends :)
- Last week, we were informed that we get to go to Morristown for work. For a day. Yep, the VP, in his infinite wisdom wants us to make the trek to New Jersey for a one-day meeting. The good thing is, my boss doesn't seem to be seeing the sense in this, and it sounds like I may be going earlier and working from there for a day. Maybe. Hurray for not rapidly flying across country and back, but boo for being away from home longer, which is bound to make me cranky.
- Speaking of cranky, I have a cold. I spent yesterday on the couch for the most part while Dan finished painting the first color of the guest room. I did a fair amount of whining, and when laying on the couch had tired me out enough, I went back to bed. I hate that I'm at work sick today (because if it was someone else, I'd be bitching about them exposing me to their plague), but it's month-end close. My plan today is to get as much done as I can and go back home. I'm already starting to feel hazy.
- I spent part of Saturday with Temerity Jane sans Penny, who had some crankiness of her own going on. We met up, headed to Old Navy for flip flops, then went for pedicures. After that, we went out for lunch at the only place we ever seem to go (The Yardhouse is yummy, though). It's always nice to have girl time, and TJ and I see eye-to-eye on quite a few things, so that was fun. Then I shadowed a very successful lia sophia advisor and spent Saturday night with the pups, take-out, and movies while Dan went dirt-bike riding with the boys.
- While we were getting our pedicures, the nail lady asked if we were married and then if we had kids. We both said we were married, TJ mentioned Penny, and I said I had no children. The nail lady said, "yet..." And I said, "no, none for us." As much as I am passionate about raising IF awareness, the nail lady I'll never see again doesn't need to know, and I'm not going to explain it in public. Apparently, my answer wasn't good enough and she ended up saying something along the lines of (in her Asian accent) "your husband okay you no want his kids?" Umm, say what? Love how that became my fault. That's the shiit I deal with. She's lucky I've been in a good place lately and didn't accidentally on purpose kick her. She should thank my therapist.
Alright, now onto the next installment of mind-freeing questions:
16. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy? This really isn't a mind-boggling question, if you ask me. We all value different things and have different interests. We’re all unique and different things make us tick. You may love stamp-collecting, while I'd rather make headbands or wreaths or something. There's no right or wrong when it comes to what fulfills you.
17. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back? I really want to see Trans-Siberian Orchestra in concert. I guess what’s holding me back is making the effort to buy tickets and go. It always strikes me as a pricey show, and though I know I'd love it, I can't seem to justify it. One day, though.
18. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of? Who isn’t? I think we all have something that we know we need to let go, and we play it off like it's not a big deal, but it IS a big deal and we're not ready yet.
19. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why? I love the Northwest and would love to live in Seattle near my sister.
20. Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster? No! I don’t mess with elevators at all. If you push stuff, it might stop, and then I’ll be trapped. Elevators are terrifying, and you never touch them more than necessary. Ever.
Happy Monday Musings Free Your Mind, friends :)
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Free Your Mind... uh, Tuesday
Oooops. I was off yesterday, and I spent most of my day putting down the first color on my tone-on-tone striped purple craft room walls. Most of the color, anyway. I didn't pull out the ladder, so Dan has the top 2 or so feet of each wall to finish. Then we'll tape off the stripes and lay down the darker shade, hopefully resulting in pure yummy purpley magic like I've been imagining in my head. The time I didn't spend painting was spent preparing to paint and taking a post-painting nap on the couch with the dogs. Fabulous.
We spent part of our weekend at the body art expo. Dan's leg piece took 3rd place! We were so excited for our artist, because it really is a fantastically clean piece of art. Body art expos are some amazing people watching. I get wanting to show off your ink, but some people were literally walking around in loin cloths and lingerie to show their skin. Craziness. And suspension artists - ick, gross. I'd seen it on TV, but it's much worse in person.
I also had 3 lia sophia shows in 4 days - one at my house hosted by my mother-in-law, and two others for friends. I did pretty well, and so did my hostesses. At the meeting last night, I took #10 in the division's top sellers for January, and it was just for a starter show, which I didn't even actually present at. Based on my sales so far in February, I stand to close out somewhere in the #4-6 range. Booyah!
Speaking of lia sophia, Amanda's show closes tomorrow, so get those orders in!
Alright, onto my next set of mind-freeing questions:
11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do? Having recently been the subject of unjustified shit-talking, I can answer this with confidence. And not only because of that, but the experience solidified what I knew was the right answer. At the very least, I’d tell them that they don’t know the whole story and while I respect them as my friends, I think they’ve got it wrong and they should get the whole story (or gasp, TALK to the subject,, even) before talking about her behind her back. And then I'd remove myself. It's hurtful having people talk about you.
12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be? Live to have no regrets. It sounds hefty and dull, but I think it's all-encompassing in life. Do what makes you happy, own it, learn from mistakes you make, and don't ever feel like you have to justify your life choices to anyone else. When you go to sleep at night, be happy with that you did that day. Live life so that when you're on your death bed, there is no thinking, "I wish I had...."
13. Would you break the law to save a loved one? Yes. I mean, it would suck to go to jail, but what would suck more is living the rest of my life knowing I could have saved someone else.
14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity? All true creativity is the result of some radical, “insane” idea.
15. What’s something you know you do differently than most people? I think compared to a lot of people I know, I’m not much of a risk taker. I value mental and physical comfort as well as certainty.
There we have it. I can feel my mind shaking free already.
We spent part of our weekend at the body art expo. Dan's leg piece took 3rd place! We were so excited for our artist, because it really is a fantastically clean piece of art. Body art expos are some amazing people watching. I get wanting to show off your ink, but some people were literally walking around in loin cloths and lingerie to show their skin. Craziness. And suspension artists - ick, gross. I'd seen it on TV, but it's much worse in person.
I also had 3 lia sophia shows in 4 days - one at my house hosted by my mother-in-law, and two others for friends. I did pretty well, and so did my hostesses. At the meeting last night, I took #10 in the division's top sellers for January, and it was just for a starter show, which I didn't even actually present at. Based on my sales so far in February, I stand to close out somewhere in the #4-6 range. Booyah!
Speaking of lia sophia, Amanda's show closes tomorrow, so get those orders in!
Alright, onto my next set of mind-freeing questions:
11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do? Having recently been the subject of unjustified shit-talking, I can answer this with confidence. And not only because of that, but the experience solidified what I knew was the right answer. At the very least, I’d tell them that they don’t know the whole story and while I respect them as my friends, I think they’ve got it wrong and they should get the whole story (or gasp, TALK to the subject,, even) before talking about her behind her back. And then I'd remove myself. It's hurtful having people talk about you.
12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be? Live to have no regrets. It sounds hefty and dull, but I think it's all-encompassing in life. Do what makes you happy, own it, learn from mistakes you make, and don't ever feel like you have to justify your life choices to anyone else. When you go to sleep at night, be happy with that you did that day. Live life so that when you're on your death bed, there is no thinking, "I wish I had...."
13. Would you break the law to save a loved one? Yes. I mean, it would suck to go to jail, but what would suck more is living the rest of my life knowing I could have saved someone else.
14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity? All true creativity is the result of some radical, “insane” idea.
15. What’s something you know you do differently than most people? I think compared to a lot of people I know, I’m not much of a risk taker. I value mental and physical comfort as well as certainty.
There we have it. I can feel my mind shaking free already.
Monday, February 13, 2012
PJs at TJ's and Free Your Mind Monday
Morning, all! I'm a hot mess today. I forgot my phone and my badge to get into the office. I forgot to leave Dan my check for my car payment, and I'm sure I'll discover I forgot something else at some point today. It's a great start to Monday, eh? I had a really fun weekend, though. I went to PJs at TJ's, hosted by Temerity Jane, which means I got to cross off #34 on my 101 in 1001. I got to meet some wonderful fellow bloggers (and a couple of their super cute kiddos), relax, enjoy girl talk, and wear my pajamas for most of a day - let's not kid ourselves though. Me wearing pajamas for 24+ hours is not all that uncommon. All in all, it was really fun, and I highly recommend attending a blog gathering if you ever have the opportunity.
Last week, I started my Free Your Mind Monday, inspired by Shana. Today brings you the second installment of my 50 Questions to Free Your Mind:
6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich? Baking and crafting – anything to be creative and gift people with things I put heart into. I'm most happy when I'm doing something that fulfills my urge to bring ideas to fruition with something tangible and hopefully fun.
7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing? I think I’m doing what I believe in. Part of my growth in the last 5 years has been to do what makes me (and Dan) happy and make no apologies. You're never going to please everyone, but what's most important is that I go to bed at night knowing I'm happy and have nothing to regret.
8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently? I’d spend more time on vacation, enjoying silence. I’d read more, laugh more, and cuddle more.
9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken? A lot I think. I’ve made some tough decisions over the last ten years, and gotten myself out of some rough spots. There's a certain amount of life that one can't control, and I've tried to make the best possible decisions for the situation I was in. I haven't always done things the way I would now looking back with hindsight, but I own it and try to learn from it.
10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things? Both. I don’t think anyone wants to do things wrong. However, I’m not willing to compromise my integrity just to get an answer “right.” Doing the right thing would win out over doing things right. I’m the only one who has to live with my actions.
Last week, I started my Free Your Mind Monday, inspired by Shana. Today brings you the second installment of my 50 Questions to Free Your Mind:
6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich? Baking and crafting – anything to be creative and gift people with things I put heart into. I'm most happy when I'm doing something that fulfills my urge to bring ideas to fruition with something tangible and hopefully fun.
7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing? I think I’m doing what I believe in. Part of my growth in the last 5 years has been to do what makes me (and Dan) happy and make no apologies. You're never going to please everyone, but what's most important is that I go to bed at night knowing I'm happy and have nothing to regret.
8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently? I’d spend more time on vacation, enjoying silence. I’d read more, laugh more, and cuddle more.
9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken? A lot I think. I’ve made some tough decisions over the last ten years, and gotten myself out of some rough spots. There's a certain amount of life that one can't control, and I've tried to make the best possible decisions for the situation I was in. I haven't always done things the way I would now looking back with hindsight, but I own it and try to learn from it.
10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things? Both. I don’t think anyone wants to do things wrong. However, I’m not willing to compromise my integrity just to get an answer “right.” Doing the right thing would win out over doing things right. I’m the only one who has to live with my actions.
Monday, February 6, 2012
Free Your Mind Monday
You know who has awesome ideas? Shana at Fumbling Towards Normalcy. She really does - she's linked up Random Musings Friday and has also been doing Free Your Mind Monday, where she shares about 5 of her answers on the "50 questions to free your mind" list. I have this list on my 101 in 1001, and I had answered them fairly early on, but hadn't figured out yet when/if to share them. Well, thanks to Shana, I feel inspired. I'm needing inspiration from people lately. I'm in a far better place emotionally than I was two months ago, but I feel like I'm at a stand still. Life has become about doing whatever it is that makes me happy and trying to push away the negativity. However, I feel like I need to let my guard down some. Not necessarily to unshield myself, but to open myself up to other happy things I've been shunning. So hopefully this will be a way to do that.
So, here we go. Opening myself up and freeing my mind, installment numero uno:
1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? Probably 25 or so. Sometimes I still feel like I’m so young and still figuring things out. Other days, I feel like I've been aged so much by the last six months or so. There are days when I'm shocked that I own a house and am married and work at an adult job and all those other things. I think it all averages out to about 25.
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying? It depends. I think there are some things you don’t have to do and fail at to know it’s not worthwhile to try. I don't believe every battle has to be fought and sometimes self preservation is valued more than experience. I think our infertility is one of those things. I'm conscious of the fact that we chose not to try, but for us, the costs and risks outweighed trying. If we weren't so risk averse, it might have been a different decision, but as long as we're okay with the choice to not try, it doesn't hurt anyone else. With other things, you have to learn from failing to succeed next time, or to learn a lesson. I think part of really maturing is figuring out which is which.
3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do? I have no idea. Because we feel we have to? Because we know they make other people happy? I’m trying harder to focus my time on the things that I love and eliminate the things that don’t make me happy. At the same time, there are people I really value in my life and they like things I don't. Sometimes sacrifices have to be made for the greater good, on both sides.
4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? Probably. Unfortunately, one thing I’m learning about myself when I’m truly honest is that I talk the talk and don’t always walk the walk. It’s a constant self-improvement action item for me. I'm trying to equal out the talk:walk ratio
5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world? It may be because of where I am now, but it’s important to me to raise awareness about infertility. It shouldn’t be shameful, and people should know that it can happen to anyone, it’s sensitive to the people going through it, and there are just some things you don’t say out of common decency. I think traditional sexual health education has done a disservice to young women, and it's important to me to find a way to improve it for the next generation of women.
There, that wasn't so hard. See you next Monday for round two :)
Also, Amanda at It's Blogworthy is kicking off her Celebrity Weekly Round-up's birthday party with some truly awesome stuff and posts and treats by incredible ladies, including probably the first ever lia sophia virtual jewelry party. Pretty awesome. Check out her site all week to join in the fun.
So, here we go. Opening myself up and freeing my mind, installment numero uno:
1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? Probably 25 or so. Sometimes I still feel like I’m so young and still figuring things out. Other days, I feel like I've been aged so much by the last six months or so. There are days when I'm shocked that I own a house and am married and work at an adult job and all those other things. I think it all averages out to about 25.
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying? It depends. I think there are some things you don’t have to do and fail at to know it’s not worthwhile to try. I don't believe every battle has to be fought and sometimes self preservation is valued more than experience. I think our infertility is one of those things. I'm conscious of the fact that we chose not to try, but for us, the costs and risks outweighed trying. If we weren't so risk averse, it might have been a different decision, but as long as we're okay with the choice to not try, it doesn't hurt anyone else. With other things, you have to learn from failing to succeed next time, or to learn a lesson. I think part of really maturing is figuring out which is which.
3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do? I have no idea. Because we feel we have to? Because we know they make other people happy? I’m trying harder to focus my time on the things that I love and eliminate the things that don’t make me happy. At the same time, there are people I really value in my life and they like things I don't. Sometimes sacrifices have to be made for the greater good, on both sides.
4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? Probably. Unfortunately, one thing I’m learning about myself when I’m truly honest is that I talk the talk and don’t always walk the walk. It’s a constant self-improvement action item for me. I'm trying to equal out the talk:walk ratio
5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world? It may be because of where I am now, but it’s important to me to raise awareness about infertility. It shouldn’t be shameful, and people should know that it can happen to anyone, it’s sensitive to the people going through it, and there are just some things you don’t say out of common decency. I think traditional sexual health education has done a disservice to young women, and it's important to me to find a way to improve it for the next generation of women.
There, that wasn't so hard. See you next Monday for round two :)
Also, Amanda at It's Blogworthy is kicking off her Celebrity Weekly Round-up's birthday party with some truly awesome stuff and posts and treats by incredible ladies, including probably the first ever lia sophia virtual jewelry party. Pretty awesome. Check out her site all week to join in the fun.
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